so I tried on my beautiful dress that I wanted to wear for the black tie dinner next week.
It fits me but I can’t breathe, sit down or fit my bra in it. Disappointed does not cover it.
When I wore this dress I felt a million dollars and I’m gutted that I can’t wear it next week.
I’m also gutted that I now have to buy another dress. In a bigger size.
I had a little pity party about it and my good friends have persuaded me to join a gym!
We have found one local to us and will be joining after the holiday. I can’t believe I’m about to say this, but I’m looking forward to it!
Since taking this job on, I have spent a lot of time travelling and sitting on my own in unkown places, bored out of my mind, and my weight has crept up on me again.
I always lose weight when I exercise regularly and because I’ve been so busy with this job for over two years, I didn’t notice what I had been doing to myself. Sitting in a car for up to four hours a day, going to a meeting, sitting in a hotel room….
Although I try and eat well, i don’t move enough to burn off a carrot stick, let’s be honest.
I’m never going to be the skinniest girl amongst my friends, but I have never been unhealthy. I liked myself best when I was pleasantly plump and healthy. I felt confident and comfortable in myself. Now I feel uncomfortable and upset when my beautiful clothes don’t fit me.
I would also like to point out that I do not want to lose weight to be a size zero- with my babylons that would be quite impossible. I want to be back in my old clothes, I want my curves back in the right places, and I want a little of the old Mcfabulous back.
No matter how much I love my job, I have to love and respect myself more and it’s time to put me first again!
Look out for posts on how I get on in the next few weeks!
If you have any tips I would be most grateful!